Tuesday, May 26, 2009

This isn't going to be......

I am not the kind of person who is clear about what she wants, but I am definitely the kind of person who just knows what she doesn't want. I guess it's better than knowing neither.

When I first thought of writing a blog, I wasn't sure what I wanted the blog to be, but I knew that I did not want it a place where I dump anything that comes to my mind.
After going through blogs of some of my friends, and even some celebrities I realized anyone with even pea-sized brain should be able to figure out who these guys are talking about in their blogs, even though references to those people maybe be veiled behind - "Someone", "A friend", "Some people", "A person I know" or simply by using that person's initials.

I was wondering if these people who write "not so nice" things about others in their blogs, are also aware that anyone who knows both of them would also know who the blogger is talking about. So can we say that they are using blog as a means to gossip and settle scores, although at a much broader forum. I guess nobody wants to be called gossipy even when one is indulging in gossip, so not addressing someone directly may give them solace that none can pinpoint, at least not with proof, that they have been talking about someone behind his/her back.

So in a nutshell... I have decided that this isn't going to be a blog where I carry out my personal vendetta against people irrespective of how much trouble a they may be giving me at that point of time. This is my blog and will remain dedicated to my thoughts that are worth something, even if it's a paisa.

Thoughts dedicated to painting onself as a victim are simply worthless.....

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Staying Afloat

For those of you who think that I am not religious, ha! let me tell you smart cookies that Procrastination is my religion and I have been following it all my life. Look at this blog. I was supposed to write my second post months ago, and here I am, almost 8 months after writing the first one. Finally I decided to water the dried earth of my blog with little sprinkle of my meaningless words.

I'll tell you what's new in my life. Generally my days are dedicated to my daughter, my job, my house and weekends include my husband too. Why 'the husband' is only in the weekend dedication?! Well those of you who know my routine , also know that I meet him only then. Anyway, so in all this running around completing chores, being a mom and a professional, a wife and a house-keeper I had stopped doing anything of my particular interest. Since a long time my "Things to do before I die" list has only seen additions and no items getting struck out.

So, I thought - life's short and it's pretty hot(summers in India), so why not learn how to swim. Which, btw has been the top item on that list since years. Being a logical person I weighed the pros and cons of both the sides and here is what my logical and fair mind could come up with -

Pros:
1.One item in the list gets struck out
2.Drowning would become a less likely reason of my death.
3.I just might loose some weight in the process. Ha!
4.When on a holiday, won't have to sit at pool's side and stare at other people having all the fun in water.
5.Will spend some time with myself
6.Will aquire a new skill(other than a software technology) after a very very long time
7. If point 3 is achieved, then may look good in a swimsuit some day and that would do wonders for my self(primarily body) image.
8. Last but not the least will bring a sense of newness, even though temporary into my mundane existence.


Cons:
1. Have to sacrifice on my already scanty sleep time.
2. Summer vacations have just started in schools, which means loads of children in the pool and they don't really take the trouble of going to the loo, when they have the urge to take a leak, while in the pool.
3. Will have to start for work right after my swimming lessons, the fatigue will no do much for my already challenged work-life balance skills
4. Point 3 in the 'Pros' will never happen, so even point 7 in the 'Pros' is ruled out.
5. Have heard of a lot of good swimmers dying of drowning


8 Pros and 5 Cons: Learning to swim was a clear winner while procrastination lost it's first battle in the arena of my mind.

So the easy part was done -which was making the decision and now what was left was the tricky part - i.e. sticking to that decision. When you sleep at 1 in the night, waking up at 5:30 in the morning makes you forget all the 8 pros, you don't even remember all the 5 cons, but just one that says -you are not sleeping enough. But I have manged to muffle that voice for 3 days at a stretch.

Did I tell you my coach is a proper Haryaanvi fellow who has maybe not heard of 'aap' as a way of addressing people. But it shouldn't matter as long as he does a good job as a coach. Which he does not.

But I think I am doing well - I have managed to motivate myself to go to the pool for the past 3 days, I have learnt how to stay afloat in water without any support.

Someday will learn to do that in real life too.
Hope rules!!!